This morning my mom and I went to Church for her weekly adoration hour. I used to find Church rather boring when I was younger. But now I find that I can appreciate the quiet atmosphere. Sometimes I just need to take a break from the chaotic noise life brings me and just spend some time with God. Still, I sometimes have a hard time focusing on what I need to do or what I want to say. Sometimes I don’t even know where to start because I have so much on my mind. Other times it’s because my mind is completely blank. But I’ve found ways to manage these hiccups.
Sometimes I like to bring my prayer journal with me. I often have an easier time organizing my thoughts when I write them down. I’ve also found myself more able to focus on my writing than doing other tasks. On the occasions when I don’t have my journal, I simply talk to God about whatever it is that’s on my mind. Even if it’s about something that might seem silly or unimportant, like my fan fiction ideas or a certain song I can’t get out of my head, I tell Him everything. I just have to remind myself that every prayer, big or small, serious or fun, ordinary or extraordinary; matters.
Even then, sometimes I find myself at a loss for words. When that happens, I take the advice given to me during a worship I attended at college. I sit quietly and I listen. At first, I was confused. How am I supposed to listen when I can’t hear anyone speak to me? But the more I thought about it, the more I understood. See, our lives are often so filled with noise that we rarely find time to stop and think. The quiet time in prayer allows me to look into myself and the world around me for clues as to what God is trying to tell me. These clues help me reflect on who am as a woman, as a citizen, and as a daughter of Christ.
Now, I didn’t make this post just to preach or to force my beliefs down your throat. What I’m trying to say is that my faith brings me a sense of comfort. Since I tend to get overwhelmed by loud noises or too many noises happening all at once, it’s nice to have a place where I can just get away from it all. I also like having someone or something I can turn to when all my other resources fail me.
That’s all I really have for today. Maybe I should try and implement some more quiet time into my schedule during the week. It might give me the motivation and focus I need to complete some of my other projects.